It's like something has been eating away at me for a long time now. It's a whisper inside of me that is constant, persistent and grows in volume every day it seems. I'm no longer satisfied with existing, the thought of living the rest of my life making money only to die in retirement )which is the "American dream") is a suffocating thought to my mind. That's not what I was made for. I wasn't made to save my money and live comfortably. I have a longing to just be free from myself, free from expectations. Free from the empty fb statuses that flood my computer screen. I want to live, wild full and free. But most of all, I want more of my Jesus. It's a longing, and ache inside me that I cannot get rid of. It's a longing to be with Him, to leave this messed up world, to see Him in all His glory.
But I have to wait.Tthis is not easy. It's difficult to be so close and yet so far from the one person that you know you were made to be with. Nothing satisfies you. Not money, food, cars, music, abilities, not even popularity. Nothing satisfies my want to have the most of Him that I can, except Him. I don't think it's selfish to want the best thing in life........I know it's not.
Aching for more of Him......
Mike
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